Kah Weng's Story

New Year Eve

2011-12-31T16:23:00.003+08:00

2011 is about to end, this year is really a suck'ish' year...

Seriously, I dislike what I'd done and what I'd faced this year...

I committed tons of wrong and mistake,

I'm such a failure, filled with lots of guilt.

Especially to the one who love me the most.

Last night, not a good night,

Brother's car got broke mirror,

everything stolen...

Couldn't blame anyone, we just can face what will happen in the future,

as well as learn from mistakes.

I hope, next year will be a good year.

FIGHT

2011-11-21T21:04:00.003+08:00

Learn to say no and ignore,
it's for my own good :))
Thanks, I learn something today...
I'll keep it in my mind

The war starts today,
1st paper, PA, not easy, not hard, time problem :((
I tot the paper is on Tuesday.
Thank you again, for reminding me the exam is on Monday instead of Tuesday.
Managed to pick up some time to prepare for that paper, phew..

Questions to myself again, am I talking straight forward again?
Is that good or bad?
I was just trying to advice and that's my way of speaking..
It seemed not working and make the condition become worst.
Sometimes, I will think in such way,
"I gave u a big influence in ur life, but not making ur life better."
Btw, it's 1001...

Many things pops out in my head,
I hope everything is under control.
Cheers, fight till the end...

Very Soon

2011-11-18T00:35:00.003+08:00

There goes, have to visit blogger for another time...
I'm considered in an exhausted level?
Today, I received all the bless from all my teachers n fellow students.
it's a day that I used to drop my tears during my graduation previously.
Fortunately went through it without tears, but full of memories behind.
After all, being in secondary school is not that bad...

Thanks to all of you who has been with me during my form 6 life in school.
Especially my class, and also those who raise up my 'lamer' mood all the time...
Though studying in form 6 = no life for my first define.
With u all, form 6 = rawks!!!
And, it was my 1st live Aluba in my life

Being stressful of the coming period.
everything I'd gone through, there's no turning back.
I have to overcome it without any regret.
Saying is easy, but to accomplish it is HARD!

I wonder, how do we define 'Thanks'?
I mean as in all cases.
Whatever I do, I will be thanked by others..
Not demanding much,
I just keep on listening that very frequently from others @@

Another question to myself,
am I being too straight forward?
I feel like I'm a sharp spear...

STPM, please bring me luck!

Around The Corner

2011-11-16T22:51:00.003+08:00

Being one and a half year in Form 6,
and now STPM is around the corner.
I'm not confident, not well prepared.
In conclusion, I'm scared...

It has been 6 and a half year studied in secondary school.
Yea, school life with school uniform and SHORT hair,
comes to an end...
During this last week before STPM starts,
I realize that I actually miss the moment being in secondary school.
However, I have to move forward to face the exam.
After this, I have to face a new journey of my life.
Goodbye soon secondary high school :)))

I always have a question in my mind,
have you ever try to eat a bowl of rice with a cone of ice-cream at the same time?
How will it feel?

Limit

2011-10-23T01:06:00.005+08:00

IT is coming very near,

30 more days to go...

Can I make it a success???

As I expected,

everything which have a start will come to the end.

There is a limit, sorry...

I just noticed during this 2 years,

I had past most of my time at outside.

I dint take good care of myself, didn't I?

Everyday asking myself,

is that good or shall I take a break?

Very confusing though..

Hmmmm,

Being dependent, not being dependent..

It that related to me, to your own self, or both?

I dont understand...

Problems & problems

2011-09-24T03:04:00.003+08:00

For me, having one burden with me is a small matter..

When this burden double up,
it become heavier, more hateful, stress!

Everything keep rushing to me,
problems by problems..

I have to find solutions to solve it,
or else i'll be dead..
Have to hold on this pain,
no pain, no gain...

FML

2011-09-04T23:03:00.003+08:00

Come on,
dont be so money matter...
I'm only 19 years old,
what do u wanna expect from me??

Every time I tried to open my mouth,
I used to think many ways n aiming for a good timing,
just to request something that u should provide,
ESPECIALLY in terms of money.
But end with argue...

Seriously, am I ur burden?
I did my best..

Calculative

2011-08-19T00:52:00.003+08:00

No matter how much I gave all the while,
I will never get back what I'd given.
In terms of heart, times, energy, money and ETCs...
Never!

Ya, I know I shouldn't be so calculative.
Now, I slowly realize that I must be protective to myself.
Not to say that I have to be 'instant' instead of calculative.
At least I must have limits and boundaries to things which are not important to me.

Relevant or not,
that's what I feel, my point of view...
=)

Changes, always...

2011-08-13T01:05:00.003+08:00

Starting to avoid myself in certain circles..
Many things change as time passes through,
although all happened very current,
but some are still remain the same.

I have the power to choose,
to be or not to be, to do or not to do...
I'm just too used to this 'current' life,
Well, everything have to be in order.
REARRANGE!!!

Rainbow

2011-08-11T23:46:00.002+08:00

After rains, there will be rainbow appear.
I have to stand back from every falls.
Just a short post to motivate me and everyone.

Anyway, happy one years old birthday to my youngest nephew, Brannon.
I know if the gift to u divided by 2, isn't sounds great.
It's just a small gift from me n my beloved,
hope that amount of numbers will become true to u, god bless. :)

Failure

2011-08-07T22:27:00.002+08:00

Everything seemed very fine today.
As planned, my sport spirit is still bright n shine through the weekend.
My plan for today,
badminton, birthday celebration, basketball.

Everything turned bad in a sudden when I received one message from my sister.
A total of 6 message in one.
I felt so guilty, sad, emotionless...
I just cant control myself,
these horrible mood had successfully hidden inside my inner part of me.
Another face of my turned out in order to entertained everyone surrounding me.

As I sweat n sweat n sweat,
and time goes on...
My brain just cant stop thinking bout the message.
"Am I that ego? Am I a failure?"
There, I asked myself again.
Yes, I admit, there's nothing to blame on,
I'm just a true failure...

The principle I'm holding now, that used to be rational n strong.
No longer on the right track,
I'm over, it's out of range.
What consumed me??
Again, I have to say, I a failure to everyone!!!

I tried to make myself tired to the maximum, I sport non-stop.
Until now, lock myself in my room, lying on the bed, escaped from everything.
Music calms me down..

What should I need to do??
Do I need to be an ordinary me, like last time.
Instead of filling my life with 'colours'??

Questions

2011-08-03T23:44:00.002+08:00

What's the matter?
What's going on??
What's wrong???

What the HELL...

Am I different than the one I used to be last time?
Am I on the right track?

No answer, no solution, perhaps BLANK.
Like swinging in a cycle.
One word describe this feeling, DAMN!!!

War Ahead

2011-07-27T00:05:00.002+08:00

24th of July, Happy birthday to my sister.. Xoxo!! ><

28th of July, Ahem!!!

Another busy week, always.
Having monthly test for 2 days,
I can see that all my friends are being relax.
It seems that this test give no burden to anyone..

But still, the WAR is coming,
Everyone is waiting for the coming of STPM Percubaan Examination.
The exam which make us filled with fear n stress.
It is not far away from now, we only left one n a half month for this examination.
So are you ready? Perhaps 'Am I ready?'

Not Good After All

2011-07-22T00:17:00.003+08:00

All the while,
I have never been a good person.
Im not good to everything, and everyone.
Perhaps a half filled pail, an half boiled egg..
This situation, worst than being raw n well done.

All my thoughts,
being positive, tolerant, responsibility, neither patient,.
Is that all bullshyt?
Is it my problem?
Or is it what my thoughts are giving excuses to my own??

Im sick, tired, with full of stress..
Life is hard..

Kampar Trip

2011-07-16T23:14:00.004+08:00

Well,

This is my first time travel with my brothers to KAMPAR, PERAK.

Our most distance trip ever!
It took us approximately 2 hours to reach there..

Our objective is to give Alex a birthday surprise :S

His birthday drops on next week, unfortunately all of us are busy on that week.

So, we decided to celebrate birthday with him in advance XD

Numbers of plan n meeting we had before this trip is on,

He fell on our trick unfortunately.

We went there in tactical way, reach there without his knowing, in cooperative with his GF.

At last, we succeed XD

He got shocked by our toilet approach,
we sang birthday song to him, I could see how happy he is at that time.
Without thinking much,
we went to pub n have some beer as well as the cake!
After that, straight to 'lob-lob', pool, mamak, then we call it a day.
3 of us took turns to have our bath,
after bath straight away we fainted on the bed.
Unfortunately, alex couldn't join us because his room is too packed.
He also have to accompany his WIFE to sleep as well.
Tooo bad for u :S

Lets talk about day 2,
woke up, have brunch at one of the famous mamak stall in Kampar.
It called Restoran Maha Maju (24hrs), known with 99 types of ROTI.
After brunch, straight away we move to the next destination, which is IPOH.
That Jusco shopping mall over there not big,
but filled with cars n people..
We are planning for movie actually,
since the ticket are almost sold out,
so we decided to go for Plan B, karaoke season..
Our dinner were buffet steamboat, a satisfied one, following by CC season.
After that, lets GET DRUNK!!

Few of us got drunk on that night,
splitting lots of nonsense,
reach back to Kampar around 6am, really awesome!
Next afternoon, we went for lunch before we go back.
And there we are, sayorana Kampar!!!

Videos are taken,
will be post in youtube..
so be patient!!! :))

Well..

2011-07-10T04:04:00.003+08:00

I really don't know what happened,
No matter what, in friendship, I'm used to it..
I'm used to face this matter,
which are friends come n go,
Sometimes, u have to pay to learn something,
either in terms of money or sensation.
This week I guess, I'd learned something,
not much and not less..
Anyway, thank you...

This would be the last night I'm staying so late in the middle of night.
Goodbye nightmare..
After rain falls, there will be a clear n beautiful day..
I just have to wish, good luck to you and to all...

Being Ideal

2011-07-09T03:54:00.003+08:00

I am a bad manager for my life.
I am a bad time planner, I dont distribute my time well.
Not even the time for me to sleep.
Everything is not well plan.
Everything seems just not enough, not balance...
Well, FML...

So tell me, what can I do to be a better person?

Assumption consume mind,
therefore judgements are usually made according to our prediction and feelings.
I wonder how could we make judgement without any prove?
Shall I compare? Or shall I debate??

Everyone's life is different, neither their expectation.
I have larger wings and bigger rounds,
I wont be totally perfect in certain expectation.
But, I will only try my best to achieve it...
I'm sorry, if I failed to do so.

I'm not the ideal one...

Still Great..

2011-07-02T21:10:00.005+08:00

I just think too much..

Everything is normal though..

Spent my time with bros these 2 days.

Overnight.. Yeah~ we called it "brothers reunion".

Every reunion of us,

we will hear different stories and changes.

However, it's good to see everyone of us are still in good condition.

Pray hard for u all...

I'm wondering,

beside cyber cafe, pool, yum cha, staying overnight which we used to do.

What else can we do?

Perhaps FISHING? LOL?!

End of the stories..

Well, coming up next,

Later me, Sean n Ken will drive along the K.L (loong gai)

Maybe around PJ or Subang area???

Hmm..

I think i'm lost, I need some direction.. :((

Previously

2011-06-30T23:36:00.002+08:00

Couldn't get myself sleep..
Guess, I have to share my feeling out again.

Haha, I read back most of my previous post,
with the playlist album in my blog (which I selected) along..
Reminds me lots of thing.. Just nice..

LOL?

A Solution Of Being Positive

2011-06-29T23:50:00.003+08:00

Recently,
I found that I get frustrated easily.
I would ask myself,
am I suffering from mental sickness?
Is it because of Stress?

Listening to music now with my stereo speaker,
locking myself inside my room n dealing with my laptop.
Suddenly reflected what my dad lectured me just now,
I'm asking myself,
am I really have no target in my life? no aim? restless?
what I'm doing now, is not on the right track/way?
Outing more than staying at home, good or bad?
His word makes me feel like I'm like a dead soul without direction, floating..

Sometimes,
I just dont know how to describe this kind of feeling.
It's hard for me to convert my feeling into verbal form.
So it will only hide inside myself, digest it all my own..
Families matter,
every family do have..
I do facing it, I belief everyone does.
It's complicated..

Be positive, yes I know the way of being positive..
But there is not solution for what I'm facing now.
In conclusion, no relief..
However, one thing I felt most relief is,
I have what others don't have although they have what I don't have.
I just have to appreciate it,
that's why I'm making this post.

About my family matter,
No matter now worst my condition is,
I do belief that there is always existence of LOVE.
same goes to my beloved.

Rains will come n go,
as well as the sunny day.
Even the four seasons are taking turns also.
Believe in something which are strong and positive,
take that belief as a foundation or a base,
so that we will be strong enough to handle problems.
I do believe in LOVE..
Do you??

Leadership Camp

2011-06-27T17:40:00.003+08:00

Last Sunday I have so call 'leadership' camp in school for 2 days 1 night.
This is the 1st camp in my form 6 life n also the last one in my secondary school I guess.
Me n my friends have been separated into other groups,
and my group, SUCKS!!

Went to the school in da early morning with half dead situation,
because I only slept for less than 2 hours.
On the second day, I never sleep!!

My leader = Totally useless..
My team-mate = Junior ( Don't know anything )
Walao-eh, really smash head..

However, I enjoyed the time with the form six gang..
The moment in toilet, played with waters with our underwear..
In camp, with all the minyak angin smells
The whole night we spend at the side of the stage,
the place we had fart n burk competition until 2 teachers ran away from us,
the place we play chor dai dee n makan together
the place we get frustrated with the mosquitoes,
and also the place we took videos of other sleeping XD
We Rawks the camp..

When the last day,
we had cooking competition,
tell u what, the tools prepared are not enough for my team..
my leader went home early, one of our member went home also.
No one knows how to start a fire naturally,
no one knows how to handle a fire,
I do almost everything my own..
Gosh..
But at last, we finished everything..

I would call that a form six camp than a 'leadership' camp..
My dear school, I think that having a form six camp would be much more better..

A Message To Friends

2011-06-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

I've gone through few blogs...
It gave me the passion to make this post..

Recently, I can feel that friends around me are changing.
Of course la, people sure will change de ma...
Some remains, some gone,
some getting better, some got strained.
My conclusion is, it's normal...

Though, my relationship with Sharon is getting better..
Thanks god!
Not to share, not to show off,
Just to prove that love is long term n friends comes n goes...

What makes me feel disappointed is,
my friends who used to be close always, our relationship got strained.
Or maybe he/she was being busy all the time??
No idea..

Anyway, all the best to all of u...
May wish comes true and everything go smooth..

Something Hidden In My Heart

2011-05-16T01:03:00.002+08:00

It's midnight now, I couldn't get my self to sleep.
Lying on the bed, feel like wanna blog now.

I felt that, everyone dislike me, sometimes..
Am I that bad??
I might think too much, but that's what comes in my mind.
Everything seems not balance to me..

Mid year exam is coming,
positively, i'm half realy!!
negatively, i feel like i could not score well!!
I dint really put lots of effort in this exam..
What am I doing? What am I thinking?!

Time is very limit,
satisfaction is unlimited..
Everything seems incomplete for me,
perhaps, it's not under my estimation..
There's a space in my heart,
what is it??

Alright, then I will spend whole night searching for it..

The One

2010-09-16T23:12:00.002+08:00

After so many things happened.
I realize that,
you are still the one, one and only one.

Everything has reached the edge.
and now everything is back to normal.

I'm happy,
once again, I'm back,
No, should be "we" are back!!

Goodbye holiday,
goodbye "2 months"...

Holiday~

2010-09-04T00:27:00.002+08:00

Ahhh, two weeks of holiday.

Wish all my friends n family Happy Hari Raya and Happy School Holiday.

ENJOY!!

One Malaysia??

2010-09-01T15:56:00.003+08:00

I read a NOTE posted by Lau Chee Kin on Facebook.
He and his one of his friend had beaten up by a group of Malays.

Could you imagine during the Merdeka Eve,
you were beaten by a group of Malays,
and they WALKED off instead of running after beating up you.
They even mentioned, "Balik ke negara asal lah u!"
You went to make a police report,
and the policemen push all their responsible away.
How do you feel if you face this kind of situation??
This is what happened to Lau Chee Kin!

You called that ONE Malaysia?
I don't care what religion you are,
ONE Malaysia?? Ask YOURSELF!

I'm not showing how politic I am.
But this kind of issue, cant be tolerate.
Because I'd experience such case before.

2 years ago,
I got robbed by 5 Malays,
I managed to catch one of them.
I called the police, and brought to the police station.
I made a report regarding to this problem.
Guess what?
After I finish doing the report,
they just let go the Malay boy.
Try to think if the robber was not a Malay,
how will the policemen treat them?

IS this One Malaysia???
Earning the country respect with this concept??
Where are the values of One Malaysia concept??

One Malaysia,
"People First, Performance Now"
Good slogan instead, but POOR implementation.

Enough..

2010-08-27T00:09:00.002+08:00

I think,
that's enough for me.
Yes, I'm stupid and wrong.
I just do what I think that it is correct.
There's no regret for what I did,
because I did it for myself.

Thanks SW,
You are a good listener yet a good adviser.
You wake me up.

So, after this big storm.
I should move on..
Be a brand new new me :)

Life is Like Running a Business.

2010-08-25T22:45:00.005+08:00

有时候，
我们就好像在做生意这样。
在生意里面竞争，
为了赚钱。
生意做大了，赚大钱，但风险高。
一不小心做错一些决定，
生意亏大本。
生意做少了，就很难生存。
怎样好？

有些人，
挂大牌做生意。
但有些人，却挂爽。
为什么？？

做生意，
和其他生意人士的关系都要打得很好，
尤其是那些比较好的生意人士。
这样做，为了得到利益，'找吃'吗。
万一打得不好，就等死咯？
都那么现实吗?

做生意就好像我们的的生活，
要去理很多东西。
真的很烦~ @@

Whats Up?

2010-08-24T18:09:00.003+08:00

What's going on?
Is there something wrong?
Or very wrong??

I don't care how other people judge on me.
Image?Fame? So what, I don't care.
I am who I am.
I just wan to be myself.
Don't simply judge on me if u don't know me well.

I just wan to get out from the past,
searching for a new life,
so that I can have a better life.
I'm leaping out from my old life,
but why cant I just leap out from it completely?

Rumours, grandmother stories,
why so many?
Is there any prices or reward given?
If no, get off!
Please n thanks..

2010-08-10T18:11:00.002+08:00

Just go through Leanne Jie's blog.
Swts, many random post on her blog.
Just wanna share something which meaningful to me VIA her blog.

Everything in life [changes] you in some way,
even the smallest things.
If you do not accept these changes,
you do not accept yourself.
For through these changes,
brings new and greater things to you.
Making you wiser as time progresses.
To avoid these changes is a loss.
You only live your life once.
Do not waste a minute of it avoiding things.
Let them come to you, and learn from them.
There is always tomorrow. :)

Form 6 Monthly Test

2010-08-10T18:02:00.002+08:00

Wulala!!~
Monthly test today.
It's my 1st test.
And, I still take it easy.
Not well prepare for it.
Die die die!

Today,
MUET = I'm totally out of topic!!
Account = Half Dead, dint really prepare well for it.
PA = simply shoot on 15 objective question. I did my graph well. Peace~

Tomorrow,
Math S & Econ.
Gotta study @@

I got no time to study,
last weekend I was working.
Haih, I overspend for this month.
I think I have to save some money.
So, work more T.T

Cheers Cafe

2010-08-10T17:25:00.005+08:00

Cheers Cafe,
located nearby my house,
One day, me n Mike feeling bored,
I drive around with his accompany n search for new place for us to have tea.
We got bored of having tea at mamak which nearby our house,
Plus that place not so into standard (hygiene).

We found Cheers Cafe,
and we have a try at that place.
At 1st I tot that place is Pub or Bistro.
But it is actually a Cafe @@
After going there once,
we like that place very much.
That place is nice, not noisy, comfortable, relax!

I current work as a part time waiter there,
friday n weekend only.
Not bad, I enjoy working there.
Not very tired, although working time quite long.
Quite flexible.

My manager,
Annysha n Emily,
they are very nice.
They are older than me,
but we still can communicate each other :)
They shared many experience and their own stories to me.
Not many, but I could understand what they trying to say.

My chef,
Kelvin, he cook delicious food.
His special dishes are Fish & Chips, Carborana Spaghetti, One Malaysia Fried Spaghetti, Fried Porridge and so on.
Kinna friendly, he's a volunteer unit in public service at Penang.
Salute him.

The stuff there.
Ah Seng, i named him as "Shadow".
Because u hardly see him.
He always hide at behind n do his cleaning job.
And another one,
a Myanmar guy if Im not wrong.
He speak english fluently,
very friendly n funny.
Nice guy :D

Lols,
for me,
Cheers Cafe,
A place where I can gain happiness.
Like that place very much :)

That place still new,
not popular,
I think they need to do more advertisement to attract more ppl to come.
Buddy, come support.
Pay a visit if u feel free :D
Cheers!

Work & Exam

2010-08-06T16:49:00.001+08:00

Work...work...work...

Exam...exam...exam...

Wulala~

尊重

2010-08-05T00:12:00.002+08:00

好心咯，
不要以为你自己好"紧要"好。
不理你有几厉害，几"神"都好，
这个世界上没有人是完美的。

是，我知道你好厉害。
OK la,你串都没“伤干”啦。
我都不怪你。
可能这是你的本性。
但是，
人家都没有得罪你，
不需要串到这样“离谱”呱？！
有没有想过其他人的感受？
就算你真的有料到，
又怎样？没有人会尊重你的。

如果真的要证明你有多厉害，
得到世界冠军先才来串啦。
到时候你要怎样串都可以。

我尊重你，
希望你都可以尊重我。
你好，我好，大家好过。
劝你就最好低调点。

Marriage

2010-08-03T16:27:00.001+08:00

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and
soon to be married, I hope you will be touched with this story...

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and
said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly.
Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know
what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly,
why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the
chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't
talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what
had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory
answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just
pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated
that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent
ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for
her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I
had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of
me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a
kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several
weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something
at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell
asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not
care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want
anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.

She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a
life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a
month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken
marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to
recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of
our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going
crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd
request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and
thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to
face the divorce, she said scornfully..

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was
explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we
both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy
in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to
the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in
my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about
the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the
office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my
chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I
hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she
was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair
was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I
wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy
returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was
growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry
her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me
stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few
dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my
dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so
thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her
heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out.
To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an
essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer
and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I
might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms,
walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her
hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly;
it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held
her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I
held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked
intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the
door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked
upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not
want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have
a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I
won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I
didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each
other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on
our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed
the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my
wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and
wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I
run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a
relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the
bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot
give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend
and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a
real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

Wrong? & Tears...

2010-07-29T23:43:00.003+08:00

Just want to express what I think here.

When ppl judge that u are wrong,
with know seeing or listening the truth.
What I will do is, I will remain silent.
Dont feel sad that they dont believe u.
Just dont explain,
Unless u have a chance to explain ur right.
Do it in a right time.
If u explain or fight for ur right,
not every people will accept the way u say,
neither u or me.
So, just let it be, dont be moody or unhappy because of that.

When you cry,
it's normal,
everyone do cry...
Its an expression that many ppl can avoid.
When u feel sad, just cry.
But, cry positively.
By right, after finish ur tears,
u will be fine.

When the rain finish,
there will be bright day.

Cheer up!!~

Moody

2010-07-28T20:05:00.002+08:00

I feel moody suddenly,
Argh! Stop it!!

My Bad

2010-07-25T01:36:00.003+08:00

Sorry everyone, I did something bad today.
Which is,I made a wrong decision.
I went back earlier when the school carnival,
I dint realize tat they need my strength to carry all the heavy things back to the class,
I need to fetch my bro,
so I couldn't stay long.
What I can say is, sorry.

I know, a sorry won't cure anything,
Because I,m really wrong at this.
This week, I got sick.
Ulcer, flu, sore throat, fever..
And it's getting more serious,
Even if I eat medicine + drink more water,
It's the same.
And yet I keep ask myself to go to school,
To make sure everything well planned.
And today, I failed for being responsible.

I have a lot of things to handle,
Carnival, brother, and sister coming new born.
I'm really exhausted,
I know this can't be use as an excuse,
But I hope all of u understand my situation.
I'm not being lazy,
I'm willing to do my best if I could.
Teacher, classmates of LA1,
I made u all disappointed.
I'm sorry...

Mess

2010-07-20T17:43:00.003+08:00

I had created a big mess...

My "master" plan succeed.

I can feel back what I had felt last time.

Just like when I was form 4-5.

Which I have no image,

people look down on me,

good...

It's been a long time.

I like that feel.

That would be my "pain reliever".

And I had it enough,

everything should have an explaination,

must be settle down.

Or else I'll be dead.

Now, the only thing is to cold down.

A very big sorry to all of u who involve in this matter.

Because I created this.

And thanks for those who willing to listen to me.

Especially my close friend :)

Ulcer

2010-07-19T19:01:00.002+08:00

ULCER!!!
2 giant ulcer in my mouth.
U are like PMS.
Makes me feel emotional @@
The pain really pissed me off.
ARGH, I HATE YOU!!!

M.Y.O.B

2010-07-18T20:31:00.004+08:00

Not trying to offense here,
also not trying to make problem.
Just wanna say that,
I'm not blind or deaf.
What I feel now is,

DON'T simply judge on other people if u don't really know he/she well...

Be who you are,
you are not CIA,FBI,CSI,SWAT, PDRM, Paparazzi or etcs...
So.
mind your own business!!!

If you think that you are the hero/heroine.
There are no rewards or any prize for you.
To those who understand what I'm trying to say,
Please n Thanks :D

I wanna live in peace...

Some Advice From Me

2010-07-18T20:17:00.005+08:00

Bro, sorry,
that night I was blur.
I rethink what u said in that night,
and I had also read ur blog.
It seems that, u really have a big problem.

This might be a tough life for u, rough one perhaps.
Or something u can't accept.

What I can advice u is,
u have to think over it.
u have to bypass urself.
The problem occurred in your heart,
I cant go into ur mind n simply ask u do choose whatever thing.

The key to open urself is within you.
Open ur mind, open ur heart.
Accept all the words, and analyze it in a rational way.
But not keep thinking it in ur way.
Face and solve, dont think too far..
All the decision is from u, no one can control u.
Remember, u urself is the key.

Although it sounds easy from what I mention,
but I dont meant that easy.
Just, believe urself.
U can do it,
take time to think okay??
Ur brothers always stand on ur side.
All the best to u...

Cross Country + Old Buddie Weekend

2010-07-18T18:50:00.006+08:00

July,
Now I only realize @@
one of my weekend in July really filled with colour~

10 July,
my school held a Cross Country activity,
many ppl are taking part in this program,
including me, but im not running,
because I have my duty as a photographer.
That was my 1st duty as a Editorial Board member.
Kinda busy and tiring on that day,
but I had took a lot of pictures, feel satisfy through my duty.

（That was me n my class teacher, Pn Caroline)

(PPU LA1, My classmates!!)

My class teacher, Pn Caroline,
was unable to take photo with us,
she went back early due to some urgent stuff.
Anyway, we still can take pictures in other time ><
After the event,
Me, LiWei Mommy, Elin Mei, Chui Han, Chai Sin, n Rainbow,
went to Paparich @ Permaisuri,
1st time go there,
that place was nice!
Enjoy the moment there @@
After that fetch everyone back :)
Went back home n rest awhile,
and then?? WORK T.T

11 July,
Meet up with my ex tuition friend,
whom are Clarissa and Shaun Yew..
4 of us,
Mike bro including me went to Connaught and have a drink,
we gather up at old town, have have our chit-chat season there.
I feel very happy when meet back with them.
All of us study form 6,
sharing our form 6 life...
All got their story, very interesting.

(Picture Taken By Mike.)

Ahh, miss the old time when we tuition~

Thats one of the interesting weekend I had past...
^^

This Is Sparta!!

2010-07-17T17:59:00.005+08:00

THIS IS MADNESS~~~

Those days,
when I was in form 5.
Im known as the ponteng "kaki".
Neh, I just dislike the assemble every morning..
So I always hide inside the computer lab.

Haha,
went to YouTube and watched "Sparta 300 Remix",
the memories I have with my ponteng mates,
pop out in my mind.

That morning,
we skipped the assemble as usual,
and we were watching youtube in the lab.
Harry shared us the video clip.
We watch and laugh loudly.
Unfortunately,
We got caught by my account teacher,
Miss Lim..

I still remember,
we are still in "SPARTA" mood,
watching the video clip,
and still laughing non stop there.
Miss Lim suddenly come in,
we all dont know want to laugh or sad.
That time we can imagine that she's the Sparta!!

Go Ahead...

2010-07-15T20:46:00.001+08:00

Yes.
Hate me.
Forget me..
Go ahead,
think what u think...

A to Z

2010-07-14T21:22:00.003+08:00

Something is just like ABC,
it starts from A to Z.

I climb too fast, reach to Z very early,
while other still climbing.
I wait too long for them to reach.
Then I just relax.

After relax,
meet up all the climbers.
They ask me, "Do you have the map while you climb up from A to Z?"
I dint realize,
I climb too fast,
until I forget to mark down the way while climbing from A to Z.

At the end, I have to jump down from Z to A.
And climb back all the way up to Z again.
What to do?So much of efforts,
but did it in a wrong way.

Stand up from where we fall...

After 'All'

2010-07-14T06:18:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile,
It seems that everything had changed, suddenly...

Hope this could make me become a better me. And of course a better life. Take time...
Everything will be normal soon.
Form 6,
U make my life peace...

Direction

2010-07-07T21:19:00.003+08:00

Brothers,
it seems that,
our distance are getting more far.
All of us are going different direction,
and also experiencing new environment.

Last time,
we always meet in school.
After SPM,
we always went out together,
play together,
we shared our joys n tears.
I miss that moment a lot!

Brothers,
although we are separated,
do not forget the days we together.
May god bless us,
to be success in our life.
Hope no one got the wrong way.
Cheers, brothers. :)

Decision.

2010-07-04T00:58:00.003+08:00

In a sudden,
Im so confused,
Im so scare that I will make a wrong decision.
Im so scare that I will regret.

What happened?
What to do??
I dont know!!!

Is this the limit?
Is this the time where I should speak up?
On that night,
I released all my stress,
trying to empty my confused mind.
After a night of thinking,
I made a conclusion.

I know, it's hard for me to make a decision.
It's like cutting the red line n blue line on a bomb.
And finally I decided to be single.
Maybe for a moment I guess.

Sorry, I know u feel the pain from my word.
I do suffer too.
This would be our cooling period.
If we could overcome/think over in this period.
We will solve our problem,
and we will definitely improve our relationship,
and also hit down the wall between us.

Hope that,
everything will be fine.
Be strong...

Holidays Gonna Finish

2010-06-18T15:27:00.001+08:00

The mid term holiday is going to finish.
Good news,
I still haven complete my homework yet!!!
Im so so so so dead..

Hmm...

2010-06-17T14:58:00.001+08:00

Am I...
Keep doing the wrong thing?
or..
Keep saying the wrong thing?

What the heck is happening??
Why am I keep feel that there's something empty...

Chemical...

2010-06-17T14:41:00.005+08:00

Monday went somewhere around Kuchai Lama,
just to get a new number plate n check out some car accessory there.
Daniel Yong's friend got a car accessory shop there.
So we gather up, n follow his car go there.
two car headed there.

New shop lots,
just opened few months ago.
The environment there not bad..

Spend RM80 there T.T..
Bought a rear number plate,
a multifunction lubricant for my car,
HQ cloth,
white indoor light,
and a tough/stubborn stain remover...

My car's mirror filled with tough oil stain,
because last time that car used to park in front the 大炒 .
So it created those oil stain, and after a long time it hard to be remove.
As I use that liquid to remove the stain,
I dint realize that the chemical are so powerful.
Until my finger become like this T.T

Diet Cafe

2010-06-17T14:28:00.004+08:00

Last week,
Me, Leanne Jie, Ken & Mike went to Diet Cafe.
O.o, 1st time heard of that,
seems so special.
So we went there n have a try.

(Energy Booster & Cramp Reliever)

The red colour drink was mine,
Energy Booster...
Got carrot & etc but taste very weird,
Sweet not sweet, sour not sour, bitter not bitter..
Still acceptable...

The green one was mike's Cramp Reliever,
Got ginger, vegetable & etc...
Totally not acceptable, a lot of ginger in that drinks.
No wonder that drink can relieve cramp -_-.

(Kiwi + Watermelon + Lemon)

As u see,
Leanne Jie drink until face also changed to sour...

Wholaaa~
Ken bro ordered warm MILK!!...
He's safe...

Hmm, not bad...
Nice moment there.
Cheer up ken bro!

Mid Term Holidays

2010-06-11T14:11:00.004+08:00

After a month of studies,
Im habving two weeks of holidays now...
Consider a long holiday for me,
and now I'd almost pass my 1st week of holiday.
Woring at Cup Bon for yesterday n today.
Blur blur geh...
I wonder how would I spend my holiday @@

9th June was Joshua birthday.
Me, Adam, Cecilia n Yee Tin celebrated his birthday at Kaki Corner.
Others FFK -_-

Wohoo..
I "tatoo" my car.
Bought some stickers n paste it on my little kenari.
Looks nice. XD
This car really dry off my wallet.
Because that car long time never use,
and now im "to be" next owner.
So many problems with the car..
Battery, sterling belt n recharging belt got problem.
My father paid RM150 and I paid RM60 for it.
Few months later I need to change the front tyre...
DIE!!! T.T

Oh ya, Fifa 2010!!
I bet that many ppl couldn't sleep well in this Fifa season.
I dont care, I wanna sleep instead of watching 20 ppl chasing the ball.
Except for the final XD
Ole Ole~~!

Homework?
Just finish half of them.
Damn, I feel lazy to do it T.T

Haih...
Damn bored here ><
Someone come save me..

My mind full of words.
But I dont know how to express it out to someone...
When I try to say it out,
I couldn't express it in details.
I dont know how,
What to do??
Teach me...

Anyway, happy holiday everyone...
EnJOYY

Why Our Sweetie Argue With Us

2010-06-06T03:17:00.006+08:00

Why ar???

Why when u did your best alreaady,
there's still argue between each other ar??

Here are four reason why your sweetie will argue with u:
(even u both never did anything wrong)

1: Men can separate sex from love, but women think that sex IS love.

2: Men talk deals, women talk details.

3: Women deliver “like-me” language, while men argue their points.

4: Men want to fix women’s problems, but women just want to share.

Different people got different way of thinking, but I do agree with the reasons..

70 Ways to Better Brainpower

2010-05-30T21:54:00.001+08:00

70 Ways to Better Brainpower -(from "A Books of Secret -by Steve Gillman)
(In no particular order.)

1. Breath deep. More air in means more oxygen in the blood and therefore in the brain. Breath through your nose and you'll notice that you use your diaphragm more, drawing air deeper into your lungs. Several deep breaths can also help to relax you, which is conducive to clearer thinking.

2. Meditate. A simple meditation you can do right now is just closing your eyes and paying attention to your breath. Tensing up your muscles and then relaxing them to start may help. When your mind wanders, just bring your attention back to your breath. Five or ten minutes of this will usually relax you, clear your mind, and leave you more ready for any mental task.

3. Sit up straight. Posture affects your thinking process. Prove it to yourself by doing math in your head while slouching, looking at the floor and letting your mouth hang open. Then do the mental math while sitting up straight, keeping your mouth closed and looking forward or slightly upwards. You'll notice that it's easier to think with the latter posture.

4. Phosphotidyl Serine (PS). This supplement has been shown in clinical studies to increase lucidity and rate of learning. It activates cell-to-cell communication, helps regulate cell growth, improves the functioning of the special receptors found on cells, and prepares cells for activity. In other words, it can help your brain power. It's also thought to reverse memory decline. Phosphatidylserine has no known adverse side effects.

5.Vinpocetine. This extract, derived from an alkaloid found in the Periwinkle plant, is used as a cerebral vasodilator. It increases blood flow to the brain, which improves its oxygenation and thereby increases mental alertness and acuity. Research suggests it may also be the most powerful memory enhancer available to date.

6. Gingko Biloba. The leaves of this tree have been proven to increase blood flow to the brain. The trees are often planted in parks. My friends and I used to eat a few leaves when we wanted a brain boost. It is also inexpensive, if you buy the capsules or tea at any health food store.

7. Saint John's Wort. This is a common weed that may be growing in your yard. Although it's brain enhancing qualities are less documented (studies do show it's usefulness for treating long-term depression), many people swear by it's temporary mood-elevating effect, and our brains tend to function better when we are happy. It is inexpensive, but I used to just collect it in the yard and make tea of it. (Hyperacum Perforatum, if you want to look it up by it's botanical name.)

8. Good thinking habits. Just use a problem solving technique for several weeks and it will become a habit. Redesign everything you see for a while, and that will become a habit. You can develop many good thinking habits with some effort, and then be more resourceful effortlessly from that point on. Use the power of habit.

9. Use dead time. This is time that is otherwise wasted or just under-utilized. Driving time, time spent in waiting rooms, or even time spent raking your yard can be included in this. With a tape player and a trip to a public library, you can start to use this time to listen to books-on-tape. You may spend 200 hours a year in your car. What could you learn in that time?

10. Learn a language. Learning a new language has been shown to halt the age-related decline in brain function. It also introduces your mind to new concepts and new ways of looking at things (in English we are afraid, whereas in Spanish we have fear). It is one of the best brain exercises.

11. Rosemary. This common herb may have an effect on the brain when the scent is inhaled. We are waiting for the research, but some people swear that just sniffing rosemary wakes up their brain. It seems safe, so if you have rosemary in your spice rack, give it a try.

12. Mindfulness exercises. Concentration and clear thinking are more or less automatic once you remove distractions. Learn to stop and watch your busy mind. As you notice things that are subtly bothering you, deal with them. This might mean making a phone call you need to make, or putting things on a list so you can forget them for now. With practice, this becomes easier, and your thinking becomes more powerful.

13. Write. Writing is good for your mind in a number of ways. It is a way to tell your memory what is important, so you'll recall things more easily in the future. It is a way to clarify your thinking. It is a way to exercise your creativity and analytical ability. Diaries, idea-journals, poetry, note-taking and story-writing are all ways to use writing to boost your brain power.

14. Listen to Mozart. In a study at the University of California, researchers found that children who studied piano and sang daily in chorus, were much better at solving puzzles, and when tested, scored 80% higher in spatial intelligence than the non-musical group. In another study, 36 students were given three spatial reasoning tests on a standard IQ test. Just before the first test, they listened to Mozart's sonata for Two Pianos in D Major, K. 448 for ten minutes. Before the second test, they listened to a relaxation tape. Before the third, they sat in silence. The average scores for all 36 students: 1st test: 119. 2nd test: 111. 3rd test: 110. A nine-point boost from Mozart!

15. Develop your intuition. Intuition can be an important part of brainpower. Einstein and others have relied heavily on their intuitive hunches. See Chapter 25 for tips on how to develop your intuition.

16. Avoid foods that cause subtle allergies. These can include wheat, corn, peanuts and dairy products. Watch yourself to see if you have a problem with any of these. They cause digestive problems and brain fog in some people.

17. Sleep better. As long as you get a certain amount of sleep - probably a minimum of five hours - the quality seems to be more important than the quantity. Also, short naps in the afternoon seem to work well to recharge the brain for some people.

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18. Caffeine. The research shows higher test scores for students who drink coffee before major exams. My chess game gets better. In other studies, it has been shown that too much caffeine leads to poorer quality decisions. Caffeine affects individuals differently, and has some nasty long-term side effects for some of us, but short-term - it works!

19. Avoid sugar. Any simple carbohydrates can give you "brain fog." Sometimes called the "sugar blues" as well, this sluggish feeling makes it hard to think clearly. It results from the insulin rushing into the bloodstream to counteract the sugar rush. Avoid pasta, sugars, white bread and potato chips before any important mental tasks.

20. Hypnosis audios. The power of suggestion is real, and one way to use it is with hypnosis tapes, CD's or downloads. This type of brain "programing" has more evidence for it than subliminals.

21. Speed reading. Contrary to what many believe, your comprehension of material often goes up when you learn to speed-read. You get to learn a lot more in less time, and it is definitely a good brain exercise.

22. Exercise. Long term exercise can boost brainpower, which isn't surprising. Anything that affects physical health in a positive way probably helps the brain too. Recent research, though, shows that cognitive function is improved immediately after just ten minutes of aerobic exercise. If you need a brain recharge, you might want to walk up and down the stairs a few times.

23. Imaginary friends. Talking to and getting advice from characters in your mind can be a great way to access the information in your subconscious mind. Imagine a conversation with a person who has a lot of knowledge in the area you want advice in.

24. Develop your creativity. Creativity gives power to your thinking. Raw computation can be done by computers now, but humans provide the creative thought that shapes our world. See Chapter 24 for tips on developing your creativity.

25. Learn more efficiently. When you decide to learn something, take notes from the start. Leave each "learning session" with a question or two in mind, to create anticipation and curiosity. Take short breaks, so there will be more beginnings and endings to your studies (Things learned at the beginning or ending of a class or session are remembered better).

26. Use techniques for clear thinking. Cluttered rooms and offices can contribute to cluttered thinking. Organize a space for mental work. Sigh, stretch, and take a deep breath before you start on a tough mental job. Plan some distraction-free time for brainstorming.

27. Brain wave entrainment. The newest brain wave entrainment products are powerful tools for altering your brain function. Some will almost immediately relax you, while others will put your brain waves in a pattern that is most conducive to analytical thinking.

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28. Creatine. This is a compound found in meat, used by athletes to help build muscle. Now the evidence is here to show that it helps your brain as well. Proceedings B , a journal published by the Royal Society reports that the research showed improvement in working memory and general intelligence resulting from creatine supplementation. The dose used in the study was 5 grams per day. This is about the level used to boost sports performance, and is as much as you'd normally get in four pounds of meat, according to lead researcher Dr. Caroline Rae.

29. Talk. Talking is only good for the brain if you are actually exercising it, of course. Try explaining something that you don't understand very well to a friend, though, and you'll notice that the process of explaining will help you clarify your understanding.

30. Do something you enjoy. This is a way to both lower stress and rev up your brain. The key is to do something active. Watching TV doesn't count. Whether it is playing Scrabble or building birdhouses, when you are actively engaged in an activity that you enjoy, you worry less about things and you start to think better.

31. Adjust your beliefs. Believe you are smarter, and you'll become smarter. For this, affirmations may work, but even better is evidence. Make a note of your successes. Tell yourself, "Hey, that was really creative," when you do something creative. When you have a good idea, make a note of it. Gather the evidence for your own intelligence and you'll start to experience more of it.

32. Brain exercises. Do math in your mind while driving. Think of a new use for everything you see. Regular use of the brain has been shown to generate new neuronal growth, and even halt the decline of mental function that often comes with age.

33. Learn new things. This is another way to exercise the brain. It can also be done with little time investment if you use books-on-tapes while driving.

34. Walk. Exercise has been shown to benefit the brain, and walking is one of the best exercises for many. It is low impact, and the rhythmic nature of it seems to put you in a state that is very conducive to clear thinking. In fact, carry a tape recorder with you to take notes, and a twenty minute walk can be a great way to solve problems.

35. Model others. Find others that are creative, intelligent, or very productive. Do what they do, and think what they think. This is a key principle of neuro-linguistic programming. Be careful about taking their advice, though. Successful people often don't really understand why they are successful. Do what they do, not what they say.

36. Eat fish. Eating fish actually speeds up brain waves, and improves concentration. Researchers have also found an almost perfect correlation between intake of fish and lowered levels of depression in the various countries of the world. The U.S. has 24 times the incidence of depression as Japan, for example, where fish intake is much higher.

37. Avoid unnecessary arguments. When you defend a position too vigorously, especially when it is just to "win" the argument, you invest our ego into it. This is not conducive to the easy acceptance and use of new information. In other words, you put your mind in a rut, and you dig it deeper with each argument. Debate can be a valuable thing, but when the ego takes over, the mind closes a little. This is not a recipe for better thinking.

38. Laugh. The release of endorphins caused by laughter lowers stress levels, which is good for long term brain health. Laughter also tends to leave you more open to new ideas and thoughts.

39. Play. Stimulating the brain causes measurable changes in the structure of the brain. New connections are made and new brain cells are grown. Intellectual play, as well as any playing that involves hand-eye coordination stimulates the brain.

40. Do puzzles. Crossword puzzles, lateral thinking puzzles, and even good riddles are a great way to get brain exercise. You can work on them while waiting for a dentist appointment, or on the bus, if you are short on time.

41. Sing. When you are alone in your car, try singing about something you are working on. This taps into and exercises your right brain. Have you ever noticed how it is easier to rhyme when you sing than when you just speak or write? This is because the right brain is better at pattern recognition. By doing this brain exercise regularly you can train yourself to tap into the power of the right brain. This will make you a more effective problem-solver. If you doubt the distinction between the hemispheres of the brain, look at how stutterers can stop stuttering as soon as they start singing. Try it.

42. Nuts. University students in Brazil and other South American countries often eat several Brazil nuts before an exam, believing they are good for their mental power. The evidence is starting to confirm this. Other nuts that have minerals and amino acids that are beneficial to the brain include almonds and walnuts.

43. Olive oil. High in mono-unsaturated fat, olive oil has been shown to improve memory. A cheaper alternative is canola oil, but this hasn't been studied much yet.

44. Vitamin supplements. In studies, children scored higher on tests when on a regimen of daily vitamin supplements. "Experts" will tell you that if you eat a balanced diet, you don't need supplements, which, given the culture here, is really just a sales pitch for vitamins, isn't it? Who eats a perfectly balanced diet?

45. Fiber. It isn't just what goes in, but what comes out that is important to brain function. Toxic build-up in the body and brain can cause "brain fog." People often report clearer thinking as one of the benefits of curing their constipation.

46. Self awareness. This may not seem important to brain power, but it is. When you know yourself better, you can avoid the usual effects of ego and emotion in your seemingly "rational" thinking. Or you can at least take it into account. Watch yourself, especially as you explain things or argue.

47. Motivate yourself. Motivation is as important to mental tasks as it is to any other. Learn a few simple techniques for self motivation. You can start with those in Chapter 8.

48. Avoid too much stress. Neuropsychiastrist Richard Restak, M.D., form the George Washington University School of Medicine and Health Services, sums up the research thus: "Stress causes brain damage." Long term stress has repeated been shown to hurt the brain, not to mention the rest of the body. Learn a few stress reduction techniques if you get stressed out often.

49. Get educated. Scientists have known for a while that the less educated get alzheimer's more frequently. Education in any area seems to make the brain stronger.

50. Avoid too much fat. In laboratory studies, animals consistently learn slower when they are on a diet high in fat. Type of fat may make a difference, so you may want to stick to using olive oil and other non-saturated fats. Saturated fats have been shown to actually stunt the growth of brain cells.

51. Eat less. Overeating has the immediate effect of redirecting more blood to the digestive process, leaving less for the brain. Long term, it can cause arterial obstructions that reduce blood flow to the brain permanently. In at least one study, rats on a restricted-calorie diet had more brainpower.

52. Avoid suspect foods. There is evidence that the following foods can be bad for your brain: Artificial food colorings, artificial sweeteners, colas, corn syrup, frostings, high-sugar drinks, hydrogenated fats, sugars, white bread, and any white-flour products.

53. Eat breakfast. When kids who didn't eat breakfast started to eat it, researchers found that their math scores went up a whole grade on average.

54. Avoid diabetes. The development of diabetes coincides with a dropping of IQ scores. In other words, if you want to maintain your brain power, follow your doctors dietary recommendations for preventing or treating diabetes.

55. Eat foods high in antioxidants. Antioxidants protect all your cells, including brain cells. Some of the foods highest in antioxidants include: prunes, raisins, blueberries, blackberries, garlic, kale, cranberries, strawberries, spinach, and raspberries. In one test, rats had age-related mental decline reversed by eating the equivalent of a 1/2 cup of blueberries per day.

56. Drink wine. In moderation, red wine can be good for the brain, it seems. It is rich in antioxidants, which protect brain cells. One glass per day for women and two for men is usually considered a safe and moderate amount.

57. Use alcohol in moderation. In a study at the University of Indiana School of Medicine, elderly light drinkers (fewer than 4 drinks per week) scored higher on tests of thinking abilities than non-drinkers. Those who drank 10 or more drinks per week scored lower. It is known that alcohol can kill brain cells, so moderation seems to be the key.

58. Folic acid. According to one study, 200 micrograms of folic acid, the amount found in 3/4 cup of cooked spinach, alleviates depression and reverses memory loss.

59. Potential brain foods. Other foods that may be good for your brain include: Avocados, bananas, lean beef, brewer's yeast. broccoli, brown rice, brussel sprouts, cantaloupe, cheese, chicken, collard greens, eggs, flaxseed oil, legumes, oatmeal, oranges, peanut butter, peas, potatoes, romaine lettuce, salmon, soybeans, spinach, tuna, turkey, wheat germ, and yogurt.

60. Vitamin E. Jean Carper, in researching her book, "Your Miracle Brain," found that many brain researchers are taking 400 I.U.s of vitamin E daily. It is an antioxidant, and reduces the clogging of blood vessels, including those going in the brain.

61. Vitamin C. Taken in the form of orange juice in a study at the Texas Women's University, vitamin C increased the IQ scores of children.

62. Selenium. 100 micrograms of selenium has been shown to be a mood-elevator. Your brain almost certainly functions better when you are in a better mood. Foods rich in selenium include Brazil nuts and garlic.

63. Alpha-lipoic acid. Alpha-lipoic acid (10 to 50 milligrams daily) improves memory and protects nerve cells.

64. Inositol. This is a safe and natural substance that is often grouped with the B-vitamins. It reduces stress and promotes clear thinking. It contributes to energy production, and so can "wake you up." Animal studies show a measurable increase in physical activity for up to five hours after taking it.

65. Huperzine A. This is a compound extracted from the Chinese club moss. Researchers both in Israel and the U.S. have used it to treat alzheimer's. It improves memory and learning an seems to be very safe.

66. Ask questions. This is a great way to keep your brain in shape. Just get in the habit of asking questions often, even if it is only in your own mind. Why are taller buildings better? what is the purpose of curbs? Ask anything that comes to mind, and ponder the possible answers.

67. Sniff basil. This another of the herbs that may be good for your brain. No studies yet, but many report a brain boost from smelling basil.

68. Temperature. Many people have noted that they think better at certain temperatures. In general, it seems that being slightly cool, but not uncomfortable, is most conducive to good thinking. Try experimenting on yourself to see what temperature works best for you.

69. Use systems. From the time I was ten years old, 12 x 49 was always (12 x 50) - 12. It's easier to figure in your head this way (588, by the way). I didn't get any credit for my personal algorithms then, but they are selling these shortcuts on late-night TV now, because they work. You can find your own easier ways to do mental math or other mental tasks, or read a good book on them.

70. Make a brainpower plan. It takes about twenty to thirty days of repetition to establish new habits, many psychologists will tell you. This means that when you create your plan for better brainpower, be sure you plan to use that new problem solving technique, or eat those new brain foods for at least three weeks. You can use many of the brain boosters here and get immediate results, but it is creating new habits that will give you the most brainpower.

Class Clean Up!

2010-05-27T21:25:00.005+08:00

22nd May,

It is saturday,
me, my classmates, and my class teacher.
Pn Caroline Vimla and the "Lower Arts 1" @@
having gotong royong in my class.
Most of us take part on this activity,
it shows we LA1 are positive.
Very good :P

We still haven't get the paint yet,
so we only can do some cleaning jobs.
There are less things to do, so we call it a day earlier.
We started to talk to each other,
make friends with each other,
unlike the previous time we meet...

26th May,
Wednesday, and it's a Co-Curriculum day after school.
The Co-Curriculum are not having any activity to Form 6 today.
Because our upper form 6 are having exam.
The school take opportunity to beautify the school.
there will be some VIP visitors coming here tomorrow.
So, we be the victims to lend out our hands.

But at the same time,
our class teacher took this time to "renovate" our class too.
That's great, we don't need to come again for doing this another day.
She brought the paint, tools, and some useful poster for our class.
While we contribute our help by painting n decorate the class.

Some of us stay back after school to finish the painting.
After finishing all the jobs, it's around 4pm+
But I feel happy n satisfy for wad I had done.
Go back home happily, TIRED!! -_-

No picture was taken on that day,
because we forget to bring our camera..

By the way,
We need to face each other as a classmates for one n a half year.
That's why get to know each other is very important.
I hope that, we could corporate together...
So that in further days ,
the class will not have problems.
I can feel that this class will be the best class ever been in my life ^^
1 Classmate...1 Malaysia XD

My "P" License

2010-05-27T20:46:00.006+08:00

21st May...

I pass my driving test!!!

Wohoo, waited for so long.

Finally I can get my P license~

Last night before the driving test,

I couldn't get myself to sleep.

I was so nervous n keep thinking that I'll fail on the slope part.

And that day,

I reach there by 2pm.

My face still bitter...

The exam start on 2.30pm.

Im the 2nd candidate, woweee...

One thing that im worry about is,
I wear the wrong shoe,
I accidentally wear the outing shoe.
It is big sized -_-
Actually I need to wear those normal canvas shoe,
it will be much more easy for me to drive.

This auntie,
she's in charge of arranging the candidates.
Nobody likes her because of her way of speaking.
Alex faced her before,
superbly dislike her,
he asked me to point middle finger to her before I leave.

I can see that,
8 out of 10 ppl failed on the road test.
Luckily I bought "insurance" for on the road test,
During my turn,
that examiner talks on the phone all the way.
Still ask me to park aside when I almost reach back.
Because she haven't finish her call yet -_-

Fortunately pass all the section.
Get my P license,
JUMP!!
Damn happy...
Thank god!!

How To Remove BLACKHEADS

2010-05-18T20:20:00.001+08:00

Here are the tips on how to remove blackheads. But before that, knowing what is the cause is also important. Almost everyone encounter acne problem during their age of teen. It is commonly caused by a bacterium which builds up in our skin pores and spreads to other part. Besides, growing blackheads is also due to our active hormone in teen age. White and black heads are both considered acne. Thankfully we can actually get rid of these irritating blackheads.

Blackheads are usually caused by heredity, eating a lots of improper food, stressed, living in a dusty area, sensitivity of some cosmetic product and hormones. So how do we remove blackheads? I have listed some treatment method for blackheads below.

one of the common method to heal blackheads is to wash your face twice a day with facial foam designed for acne. Besides try this, rub fresh garlic on your pimples(not scars). Acne will be vanished in no time. This is a proven instant treatment for acne, but again it is not for everyone. Next you might need to drink a lot of wheatgrass juice, as wheat grass can effectively remove acne and blackheads due to its anti-acne agent.

Diet good for removing blackheads

You need to drink at least 8 glass of water everyday because water is the most important substance for your body’s health, it helps remove toxin, just try google drinking water benefits then you’ll know what I’m talking about. In short, it helps clear the skin and maintain skin elasticity, and of course, remove acne.

Fruit that is rich with vitamin C is a must, eat more of these to promote your skin’s health. It really helps remove acne. Zinc is important as well, which is responsible for oil-producing glands of the skin, maintain zinc intake to prevent acne breakouts.

Now you know how to remove blackheads from the health tips above. Here are some other resources on acne. Read this facts of acne and home remedies to treat pimples. Hope that they can give you a clear idea of removing and preventing acne blackheads breakouts.

Chinese Green Tea Diet Health Benefits

2010-05-18T20:18:00.003+08:00

Since Ken bro are alerting my blogs "science" part...

I would like to share more information,

which I know...

Enjoy bro :X

More than 4000 years, Chinese green tea diet has long been revered as a tasty drink that can prevent diseases and improve one's welfare. There are few herbs that can surpass its impressive history.

Since its first recorded use under Emperor Shen Nung, the link between Chinese green tea diet and good health has never been interrupted. Today, further studies are conducted to test the benefits of the remarkable health elixir.

Health benefits of traditional diet

According to tradition, this diet can cure everything from headaches, body aches and pains to constipation and depression. Over the centuries, more health claims on behalf of Chinese green tea diet.

It detoxifies the body. The presence of polyphenols, a natural antioxidant in this particular tea is said to combat harmful free radicals and helps the body free from diseases. In this regard, Chinese green tea helps maintain the general welfare of the body. He fights with the anti-aging as antioxidants can increase immunity, preserve young-looking skin, and make your eyes.

Additional health benefits of green tea increases blood flow in the body. Because it contains a little caffeine, consume this drink stimulates the heart and allows blood to flow more freely through blood vessels. For the same reason that tea stimulates blood flow, it also stimulates mental clarity.

For many years, men of science remained skeptical about the health claims of enthusiasts, Chinese green tea diet, because health benefits are very large in number. Their doubt was changed to a more positive reception when, after scientists had proved its disease prevention properties and confirm the majority of health claims.

The Heart

Study after study has shown that drinking green tea and eating foods rich in polyphenol reduces risk of cardiac complications. It helps to strengthen the blood vessels that provide valuable nutrients and oxygen to the heart and brain. She has also studied, men who use food that is 75% less ability to attack from those who are not used for food.

Green tea diet helps lower total cholesterol and improving the relationship between LDL cholesterol and HDL cholesterol. The survey shows that men who drink nine or more cups of Chinese green tea daily have lower cholesterol than those who drank less than two cups. While nine cups may seem like a lot, which is divided during the day, and realize that it is not hard to drink that many cups. You can have one during and after each meal and during the breaks.

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Durability

Role of the Chinese for "diet" to promote longevity has been studied for many researchers. They found the premise for their study on observing Japanese women who are older than the average green tea drink, have lower mortality rates than others. This led researchers to believe that diet is a "protective factor against premature death."

The polyphenols found in foods can not be held responsible. With its high amount of polyphenols, it seems to have a stimulating effect on the immune system. A stronger immune system, caused by drinking green tea helps reduce the risk of getting many diseases.

If these health benefits, making Chinese green tea diet can not motivate you to start drinking this miracle in a cup, chances are you will never be motivated to lose weight. So start today and drink up. Health benefits beyond weight loss!

Another Week Of Schooling~

2010-05-17T18:16:00.003+08:00

Another new week of schooling...

Im still fresh now.

But I cant guarantee further days im still fresh or not.

Teachers day today,

though im not study long in that school,

but yet I need to attend to school although there's no class today.

Show commitment maa...

Ea Chuan bro fetch me early in the morning to school.

Ride his motor, feel cold while on the way.

The morning "breeze" are chilling @@.

Enjoy...

Today,

I "jalan-jalan, tak tao buat apa."...

Wait the time pass,

after school go Carefoure with Cecilia and the gang.

Then leisure mall, grab some books n stationary sets.

She fetch us back,

and now, we planned, and we decided...

She'll fetch us go n back,

that means car pool la.

One month, we give back her RM50.

The amount of money should be enough for her to cover,

her petrol, car maintenance...

If everything goes well...

We all good ^^

Alex's Farewell

2010-05-15T23:39:00.004+08:00

(Me n Hui Ting)

(Watching Thomas Cup Semi-Finals)

(Lee C.W VS Lin Dan)

Sorry for dint take pic with u, Alex...

Alex farewell last night.

Together with my ex schoolmates...

Organized by Chin Yee...

We gather up on 7pm,

station one cafe.

We are actually celebrating Alex farewell,

but it turns up into watching the badminton semi-finals.

We couldn't concentrate on the farewell,

we just leave our well served dinner there n watch the match.

the whole station one were watching it.

Seems like the whole Malaysia supported LCW.

During the middle match,

we concluded that LCW sure LOSE.

Lin Dan was too strong @@

Even the other 2 match versus China,

Single n Double, also LOSE.

3-0, they need to learn from this defeat.

Opps, too much of Badminton, lets back to the party.

Run as usual, until night we go for pool.

Then yam cha, get to know a new friend "N. Cassandra".

Balik...

Alex bro, wish u have a good life in Kampar.
Study hard, n 一路顺风!!

Back To Uniform...

2010-05-13T22:38:00.007+08:00

Thats me, in school UNIFORM!!

(Explore Race, punishment. Damn -_-)

That's Flour...Painted by my senior -_-

Hahah, that's me in school uniform...

Finally orientation programme in our school has been done today.

Im in Arts1 class..

19 ppl in my class including me.

18 Chinese, 1 Indian.

15 girls, 4 boys.

Class teacher, fierce, teeth shining one,

Pn Caroline (our MUET teacher.)

Cecilia be the monitor,

im the assistant monitor...

Aiks, hope I can get to study with my classmate well.

Form 6 is a tough moment to be.

Hope everything goes well!!

Form 6

2010-05-10T18:13:00.004+08:00

Say goodbye to my freedom, confusing, lost life.
My new school life just started today...

Im study Form 6 in different school, which is SMK Cochrane now.
I missed SMK Taman Connaught so much!

Went there to register myself with mike,
I'd been REGISTERED!!
But teacher caught me for long hair -_- ( my hair already enough short le eh)
I feel like, everything is NEW.
That school compound is BIG.
I need to take some times to recognize the place :S

Had orientation with teachers n seniors.
Kinda boring over there while listen amen.
Aihs, schooling time extend.

Monday - Tuesday, 7.20am till 2.40pm.
Wednesday - Thursday, 7.20am till 3.30pm.
Friday, 7.20am till 1.10pm.

Play some game organized by our senior.
Get to know some new friends there,
they all are May babies XD
because we are arranged in a group according to our birth month.

After that, went back home...
Kinda tired...

I havent get my driving license eh,
now suffer, need to take public bus to Maluri n walk quite a distance to there.

Haih...

My Birthday 2010

2010-05-10T17:57:00.004+08:00

(Taken from Angeline's blog)

During the past 5th of May...

I need to thx all my friends :

Alex
Ken
Mike
Angeline
Hui Ting
Jing Yi

For celebrating my birthday party at Gilly Cafe.

Great thx to Alex bro...
He planned all this, everything.
He really gave me a big surprise, ever...
He make it come true,
which is my friends, n my beloved,
celebrate my birthday together...

Everything goes normal...
It was a normal bday celebration.
But anyway it's really okay for me de.
On 5.30pm,
Alex wanna go back (accompany mom go dental check)
He asked Angeline to fetch him along,
as Angeline wanna go back "tuition" also.
They went off...

Feel strange in a sudden,
maybe they wanna go buy cake or wadever stuff.
What I cant believe when they return back were,
My darling Sharon holding a cake n sing bday song to me.
I really stunned n dont know wad to do.
My mouth open big big only...
She rush back all the way from her competition place.
This time, I wanna thx Jennifer n Sow Fun mei for helping her to reach there.
They tricked me, all planned to give me a surprise...

I felt so happy,
I had a good birthday this year...
Thanks everyone...

2010-04-28T22:36:00.003+08:00

Not trying to offence,
But hope u all understand.
Im not a hero,
not a pure matured person,
not acting smart,
not trying to save the day...

Due to this issue,
I'd tried not to care abt it.
Im not the 1st party,
not even the 2nd...
not even the 3rd...
But im just the 4th in this situation.

I dint see the real problem,
ya, I cant judge or care so much abt this problem.
During the problem,
I keep my mouth shut.
I know im not involving.
I know ppl will say "GLLS"
But it doesn't means that I cant speak anything after the incident..
Since all of us together.

I act as a character who dont know anything,
just try to advice my bro.
Thats it...
Maybe the way I talk or ask is not that good.
Whether he listen or not,
whether he answer or not,
whether it is my matter or not,
I just wan him to know his answer within his heart...

Thats all...

Semakan @@

2010-04-27T16:34:00.003+08:00

Went to this site to check whether im chosen to enter Form 6 or not.

apps.emoe.gov.my/form6/semakanform6/

Taniah, Im chosen!!

Yohoo... It's time to prepare for my form 6 life!!

Cozzia

2010-04-27T16:08:00.003+08:00

Last friday until sunday,
Im working with Alex.
The company name is Cozzia,
It's a new company, launched this year.
We are selling massage sofa @t Ikano n KLCC.
It was fun and I gained a lot of experience there.

Im new there...
The ppl there are kind n friendly.
They willing to teach n share their knowledge n experience.
Im happy n glad to work with them...

While working,
I get to know many new friends.
Some are also new like me...
Haha, we stand together, work together, learn together.

Aiks,
although it was tired, especially the last day.
Because we need to pack up all the units and move it to the lorry.
Our senior treat us very good.
They are really very good to us.
I like them so much...

As im still new,
I still got a lot of things to catch up.
I do feel sorry for what I'd done wrong.
Thanks for all the taught...

PC Fair

2010-04-19T20:03:00.004+08:00

Last friday,
It was PIKOM PC Fair...
Haih, gonna work for 3 days.
Cant sleep well...
Arhhh, my bed T.T

Friday,
woke up early.
Went down to brush teeth,
NO WATER!!

Damn it,
went to Mike house n borrow his house water.
7.30am begin the journey together with mike.
Heavy traffic jam in KL..
Bo eye see,
reach LRT station rush to KLCC.
But still, im late T.T
The train broke down in the middle of the way.
Dragged us half our for waiting the train coming at the back.
The train stop 3-5mins at every station.
Im late!
We reach there around 9.30am,
luckily our boss also late due to traffic jam.
So im safe XD.

Meet up with my group member.
And im the leader :X

After briefing,
all of us proceed to the conventional center.
While working,
I feel new because I never do sales before.
But im picking up,
learning how to sell the product.
1st day, I only sell 5 unit.
In total, many get 0 unit, pity them.
Get to know many friends too ^^
Went back by bus to Maluri,
then my mom fetch me n mike from there back.
Damn tired for the 1st day.
Boss not satisfy for the total sales @@

Saturday,
Wake up much more earlier compare to last day.
Scare late, but actually saturday doesnt jam.
Damn tired T.T
This time we reach there around 8am.
But nvm, me n mike went to subway,
mike have his breakfast there.
until 9++am,
we went to gather up.
Go work as usual.
This day, I did more sales.
I sell 8 unit in a short time,
after that I walk around KLCC.
Muakaka, lazy me...
Took some pictures, play play har then finish work jor @@.
Not so tired, because I dint stand there for the whole day,
I got curi tulang maa :P

Sunday,
same...
Many customer come for purchasing the lappy.
No more surveying or looking around.
I can see that many of us planned to do as much sales as they can.
I do sales until 6pm,
11 unit sold, went down and walk around.
Happy, went to walk around in the PC Fair with Adam n Mike.
Went to WCG n play games together.
Played 1 hour, went back around 7.30pm.
It's good to know that Joshua got good sales results.
No more 0 record :P

Went back to the battleground,
fooling around, took plenty of pics wit all of my frens.
Was relaxing n enjoying over there.
After finish work,
Adam's mother fetch us back..

I enjoy working at the PC Fair...
PC Fair, U rox!! XD

2nd Driving Lesson

2010-04-14T16:09:00.005+08:00

Wheeee~~~
It started 9am in the morning...
My driving tutor drive me to the same place again.
This time,
I learn more...
Not just turning left or right.
This time,
I drive through housing area, bumpers, roundabout, highway...
I even drive back to my home XD
Extreme"nye"....

Now I finally know most of the Malaysians driving attitude,
is totally SUX...
It's very true that driving in Malaysia are danger.
Those who haven drive, know how to say.
But when we really drive, we know the true feeling.
Memang danger...

Aiks,
this friday im going to work at KLCC PC Fair...
Who want to buy lappy come find me. :P
See u all there..

My 1st Driving Lesson

2010-04-08T20:46:00.003+08:00

Argh,
I don't have enough sleep last time!!
Woke up 10.20 in the morning.
Damn sleepy actually.
But still have to wake myself up.
Hit 1 cup of Nescafe to make myself awake.

Today is my 1st driving lesson.
Wohoo~~
Finally can learn how to drive in a proper way.
Im gonna drive~~

Reach the center 11am sharp,
wait until the kor kor who teach me driving finish prepare,
and here we go...
He drives me to a place where not many cars passing by.
He teaches me all the basic regulation of driving.
Then he only sit on the driver seat n drive.
Doesnt feel nervous, because I'd drive before, muakakaka!

I drive over there round n round n round.
Kinda bored while driving n the sunny weather is killing me.
But I learned many new stuff.
2 hours on the road in one class,
which mean there's still 6 hours left.
3 more class, faster finish it arhhh.
So I can take the driving test soon,
then I will get my driving license ASAP...

I wanna drive...

Genting Trip 2

2010-04-08T19:58:00.004+08:00

During the 5th of this month,
received a morning call from my uncle.
My uncle got one room for staying one night at Genting,
Guess wad, I went to genting with mike again!!

Stay one night there.
Lol, this time just me n him.
Since we are having some finance problem,
we planned to use less money there.
Genting makan memang expensive.
So, we bought some Cup Noddles and some food before we go there.

Kebetulan that day is the exact day of "清明".
Can go find Uncle Lim and bai bai for him :P

Go there by bus with mike,
Reach there around 4pm.
Took some pictures, walk around.
My uncle's friend helped us to get the room.
We acquire the room key from them and went into the room n have some rest~

This is our room @@...

Displaying the food we bought~~

Our shoes (black = mine, white = mike)
Taken while walking around there...

Me n Mike -_-

We rest until 6.30pm like that,
my uncle call me to get prepare at 7pm,
we had dinner at KFC.
My uncle treat us for the dinner.

He gave me RM50,
neh, not planning to use all of it.
So I use it wise...
We just walking around @@

Actually we just went there for passing our time there.
and I long time never go Genting with my uncle.
Last time my uncle used to bring me there when I was young.
Miss the old time very much.
We just enjoy the cold wind there...
Recently the weather in KL are damn hot!!

Went back to KL next day,
mike seems got sick after coming back from Genting.
Hope he's ok :D~

Gay??

2010-03-31T17:53:00.005+08:00

Wad thaaaa????

I cant believe wad I saw when my manager give me this.
I thought I see the wrong name.
Lexsmond & James???
Gay?!?!
Come have a look @@

1st time, gay lou wedding XD

HOMOSEXUALLLLLLLLLL~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Hand

2010-03-22T15:38:00.003+08:00

That's my hand~
Seems injured right?
Anyway it just small skin injury,
it doesn't feel pain.

This injury caused from my work.
I feel shock while working at Cup Bon on Sunday.
It's a new record for the sales,
I'd sold 82 cups milk tea on tat day.
This is the 1st time I shake the blender until my hand becomes like that.
Busy day, but I dont feel tired.
Weird isn't it? @@

Friendship

2010-03-18T15:43:00.003+08:00

That night, was a night we flood with tears in the car.
One thing happened,
it's abt a phone...
which make us fall into a serious argue...
Dont really wanna mention it here.

A night that 5 bro of us know the true friendship.
We show our real face, real care...
We drop our tears together...
Because we are brothers, we got feeling.
5 of us wrong, no win, no lose.
We hug together...
And apologize to each other.

It's a touching night,
an unforgetable night.
A night that show that we are brothers.
Brothersss... Lets be brothers forever k?
Dont forget that night...

Pass!!!

2010-03-18T13:44:00.003+08:00

Got something to share today,

Ladies n Gentlemen~
After few nights of study,
after 500 questions,
today, im ready for the undang test!!!

I woke up on 7.45am,
prepare myself n go to the driving center,
reach there 8.30am sharp.
Gather up wit my driving tutor,
meet one of my tuition fren n one of my schoolmate.
We start moving to the HQ n reach there around 9am.

Same thing happened like last time again,
I have to WAIT for the process...
The system there went offline,
so I cant take the exam there.
The sad thing is, I stand there and white white wait for 1 hour+.

Uncle quickly move me to another branch nearby there.
That place provice the undang test too.
This time, I waited for half an hour,
the 1st batch candidate went in,
and im the 2nd batch.
They are doing slow...
But wad to do, I have to be patience.
Until all the 1st batch candidate come out,
then it's my turn...

Wait until my stomach is in "walkman" mode,
It's 11.30, my turn to take the exam.
Kinda nervous although im acting serious.
Keep on holding the question book before I went in the exam room.
I saw one of my schoolmate again, Wai Hou!
But tat time, the person in charge there called my name, @@!
I prey for myself , then I enter the exam room.
No just awhile, I'd finish the exam.
I PASSED my undang test!!!
It just took me 16mins 5sec~
46/50~~~

Muakakaa,
feel so happy.
But anyway im damn hungry!!
Thank you to all ppl who had wish me good luck in the exam.
Thanks all of you...

Laughter

2010-03-12T21:28:00.007+08:00

Im sick,
but haven truely sick yet!
I cant be sick!!

Not planning many thing today.
Juz planned to go to alex house n chit chat wit him.
Pass some time with him there.
At night my sis will fetch me back from there.
Went to school for awhile,
then only went to Alex house.

Mike bro called n ask us to accompany him buy present to "someone".
We gather at school n go there by public bus on 3pm,
reach there in half hour time.
Went through Time Square to Sungai Wang.
Mike bro bought the things he want.
We got not much time,
because we scare later there will be traffic jam while on the way back.
So we quickly move to Time Square.
Alex bro bought a bag for his brother,
while I bought 2 items,
which is a Sunglasses n a O.D.M watch.
U wont believe how much it cost,
it's only Rm10 per item.
Took pic when im back home,
here is it :

After that,
we went back to connaught by bus again.
While inside the bus,
I saw one granny n her grandchild sleeping in the bus together.
They looks funny,
they acted very funny, took pictures.
I ask Alex to look at them, I cant control,
I laugh n split out my saliva to Alex bro's face.
Man, im so sorry!!

(I know im bad...)

We went back to connaught,
went to the mamak stall n had our dinner there,
Ven bro joinned us.
We spend our time chit chatting there.
After the dinner we went to the Cyber Cafe n online for awhile.
Wait till my sister came,
we called it a day~
Phew, it's tired~

Disapointment...

2010-03-11T19:48:00.005+08:00

It's a day most of us could not sleep/sleep well,
we wait for 3 months.
The day before we can take our results,
we are thinking what result will we take on tat day.
worry to the maximum,
prey to the maximum,
for our SPM results.
Even our parent, beloved, teachers and frens around,
will bless us for our result.

Early in the morning today,
me n mike went to connaught.
We had light breakfast at McD.
Ken came on 7am.
3 of us sit at there till Alex bro arrive.
After that,
our next station will be the Dim Sum Restaurant.
Filled up our stomach while wait for Ven bro arrival,
went back to my house n change to a better shirt.

It's almost 10am.
we quickly rush back to school n wait for our long waited results.
went in the school.
Many of our junior came out from the class,
they look at all of us who waiting for results like one kind.
Maybe, they are hunting for those handsome boys n pretty girls.
It's 10.30am in a blink of eyes,
it's time to face the truth,
the happy/sad moment started to fuse together in the hall.

After the teacher in charge started to give our the result,
most of us sweating, panic, heart pump hyper fast, and many more emotions.
Oh ya, I also want to thx all my friends who wished me.
Especially my beloved ^^
Im the 1st ppl in my class who take the result,
I already know wad of result I will get.
Quickly take a look at my result paper,
my results really very tidy, but not nice enough.
I got 3As, 4Bs n 2Cs.

Maths A+
Account A
Add Maths A-
E.Asas B+
B. Inggeris B+
Science B+
P. Moral B+
B. Malaysia C+
Sejarah C+

I can see many POSITIVE in my results.
7 among 9 of the subjects got POSITIVE~
"A,B,C", tidy isnt it?

Got abit feel regret~
A- n B+ are so damn near,
If I put more efforts before the SPM.
I might hit 7As...
I can show off in front of my dad.
Can be proud of myself.
But now, only 3, haih.
Actually I can do better, but why~~
Haih, past already.
Forget abt it ba.
Next time, I'll do even better!

All my bros feel moody n unhappy when they got their results including me.
They are not satisfy with their results.
But wad to do, thats our result, our efforts.
We put how many efforts, the results shown wad grade u got.
Wad ever mistakes we done,
we cant blame who.
Just can blame ourself.

We went to apple dreamz,
had few round dota,
in moody mode.
All play untill no mood also.
Lose all rounds.
All face black black de.
We head to Neway on 1pm,
had our room n started to sing karaoke.
Took some pictures,
all of us still looks moody,
all of us dont have mood to sing,
yet continue to sing,
find frens to play around with.

Me n mike sing till no voice.
Alex n Ven play wit other frens to the maximum.
Ken went other room to sing, get bored n fed up.
All of us dint really enjoy the moment there.
When it's over,
we went to 1st Station Cafe.
Ken drove us there,
there were 3 additional girl following us there,
Me, mike n ven forced to sit at the back of the car.
Kinda bored there,
due to some parental issues, we went back earlier.

After went back to home,
I show my result to my dad.
No respond,juz say it's normal.
I can feel tat he's not satisfy wit my result.
He aspect higher results.
He's disappointed.
Dad, im sorry, I never do my real best on it.

To my bros,
dont feel sad or disappointed for our results.
at least we are qualify for entering college/uni,
it's enough...
We'll have a different life soon.
So, prepare to face our new life.
More n more challenge ahead.
Lets stand up, and start moving~ ^^
We can still do better!!
Cheer!~

Day Before SPM Result

2010-03-10T17:46:00.004+08:00

After few days of outing,
im finally staying at home n rest today.
My throat is getting more pain,
getting sick soon.
Facing the computer for the whole day,
hence reading the "Undang Bible".

Tomorrow is the day of life n death.
The day who all the formal 2009 SPM students take their SPM results.
A big change day,
where all the students become not like students,
Tomorrow we'll see.

Anyway, good luck to all of us tml.
Hope we can get good results in SPM.

Genting

2010-03-08T15:30:00.004+08:00

Last weekend,
I visiteed uncle lim.
Me, Shaun, his family, n Mike went there together.
The weather there quite cold.
We enjoy lots lots of fun there.
We play to the maximum n also spend to the maximum :(

On saturday,
me n mike went there by cab (each person RM15).
While Shaun went there wit his family by car.
we reach there earlier because there's a bicycle competition there.
The way to uphill will close from 10.30 to 2.30.
Me n mike reach there 1st,
kinda cold due to the rainy weather.
Started our photo frenzy.
Saw many couples there too~

After shaun came,
we had a long que for checking in to the hotel.
We put our bag to shaun's parent then go for theme park.
Thx shaun for treating me.
we went in there,
played most of the things there.
unfortunately tat spinning cup makes me feel dizzy
There were many ppl there n we are having long que too.

3pm we went back to the hotel and find our room to have some rest.
Although the room looks tidy.
But it was filled wit DUST.
Took our bath there,then went to eat at McD.
It was expensive :S
We walked around the 1st world,
was planning wad to do at night.
We bought movie ticket on 1.30am (solomon cane).
window shopping around n tried the pool there.
Damn, the pool there really sux although it's cheap.

7.30pm gathered up.
Went for hotel buffet.
each person RM50, but eating normal food.
After this time, next time I wont go there anymore.
I rather go for McD -_-.
After the dinner,
we continue our theme park until 10pm.
Had a lot of fun there because we dont need to queue anymore!
Played something which I never play before,
Solero Shoot, Cork Screw~~

Went back to 1st world n looking for other plan.
bought snow world ticket.
It started on 11.30pm.
At 1st when we enter there,
it was damn freezing.
Until my ears also pain..
Enjoy tossing the snowball to others.
But end up with all of them inside there ganged me up -_-.

Walk around after the snow world.
Hit starbucks to keep me awake.
1.30am we went for the movie.
mike fell asleep during the movie XD
Expresso u rox!~

until 3am something,
we went back to the hotel.
prepared to sleep.
shaun sleep 1st.
Me n mike were still chatting on the bed.
Until quite late, I cant hold it anymore n sleep already.

Next morning,
shaun wake up early n had breakfast wit his family.
we still sleeping,
until 11am we woke up n packed up our stuff to go back.
Me n Mike took the bus back on 12.05pm.
We went back to the bus terminal around 1.10pm.
had our lunch nearby there.
Waiting my mom n sister come fetch me to my grand parents place.
After tat we head back home.
Taken my bath n washed all my stuff.
I quickly jump on my bed n get myself some rest!

It was superb tiring.
I'd spent around RM150 there.
But it is worth cos I never had so much fun before.
Hope there will be another time going there.
With my bros n surely the one who I love ^^

Apologize

2010-03-05T22:42:00.004+08:00

A very big apologize to Ken bro today.
It was my wrong.
I shouldn't be so tempered to u.
It's just a game,
sometimes gonna be serious,
but shouldn't be serious until scold ppl.
Im not tolerate enough.
Suddenly lose control on my mind.

Hope u dont mind n forgive my bad behavior today.
Sorry...

Undang

2010-03-04T18:34:00.005+08:00

Finally,
I went to listen KPP today.
Morning 7.30 wake up,
8.30 reach office,
9.15 start going to HQ,
9.35 reach HQ,
10.35 started...

Really white wait...
So early wake up,
but end up wit wait.

Tat class quite hot.
Got Chinese, Malay, India in da class.
Really 1 Malaysia.
The 1st tutor quite funny.
But I'd sit for too long.
Hot & Backside tired.
Arghhhh~~~

I tried the exam questions in the computer.
2 times, also failed T.T

Argh, really need to study jor.
I dont wanna fail my undang!

Fell asleep after reach home n bath.
Super tired!

Huat Arr..

2010-03-02T11:48:00.004+08:00

Hehe, yesterday was a pure lucky day.
Me, alex n ken was hanging out around connaught.
Had lunch together at Mcd,
meet few of my friends working at there.
When we purchase the meal,
we had an "add on" service.
Muakaka, eat also lucky jor XD!

Decided to go back after lunch.
Guess wad,
we found a fold of money on the floor while walking back to ken's car.
we quickly ran into ken's car.
In tat few minutes,
3 of us laugh till crazy.
Hand shaking while counting the money.
100, another 100, another 50, 10, 10, 10, 5, and 5!!!
RM290!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This time really Huat arrr!~

We dint think of going back already.
after pick up ken's sister from school,
we go sing k at Neway to celebrate le.
Wohoo~!

Never been so lucky before.
Thx god!

Btw I juz got back my IC...

Destination?

2010-02-28T15:25:00.003+08:00

I feel like,
Im like a wild grass,
growing widely on the ground.
But not growing upwards.

I feel like,
Im a moving object,
moving round n round,
without a destination.

Im lost...
Where should I go?
Wad should I choose?

A Hard Night

2010-02-27T16:48:00.003+08:00

I'd fallen down,
deeply...
I dont know how to stand up again.
Although I tried my best.

I never cry so seriously in front of my friend before,
I tried to hold my tears in front of them,
they shouldnt see me in trouble.
but it keep falling down.
I cant control myself.
Sorry for bothering u two.
Thx for caring me :)

I never cry so long before,
till my eye also become little.
Tat night really a hard night for me.
Everything turns black.
Became no 理智.

One night gone,
another day come.

I acted like nothing happen today,
I tried my best.
but it still the same.
I guess, we haven prepare to face each other.
I guess, we need to cold down for a moment.

Im sorry, once again...

Gong Xi Valentines!

2010-02-14T22:32:00.002+08:00

O.o,
Happi Chinese New Year!!
A brand new tiger year for Chinese.
Happi Valentines Day!!
Another Loving day for all the ppl.

Both of these days clash together,
I wonder how the couple pass their valentines day together?
@@,
normally we wishes the others "Happy Chinese New Year".
There's some changes today,
we shorten this 2 wishes together into " Gong Xi Valentines".

Haih,
all my bros are busy,
one balik Ipoh,
one balik Pahang,
one pigi Klang.
But nvm, after 20th,
we can go gather already.

This few days,
really the gayness HOT!!
When go out,
I feel like im in the desert.
Even when im inside my house,
I feel more like inside the oven.
Ish, the weather like forcing me to drink water.
It's drying my tongue n keep making me sweat.

Ahhhh~
I need a cold place!!
Air Cond, Ice Cream, Cold Drinks~~~
I WANT!!!

...

2010-02-10T12:06:00.002+08:00

Another bored day,
im currently at cup bon working.
So so so so so boring seh.
Tomorrow, im going to Time Square wit Alex.
Wohoo, both of us are aiming for something,
hope tat we could purchase the goods tat we want.

Days before CNY

2010-02-09T16:54:00.003+08:00

Ahhh,
CNY season is coming soon.
The angpow spree is coming!
As well as the fearful working week.
Last year when I was schooling,
I did work during the CNY season,
at last, I end up to be a dead man after the CNY week.
Haih, sure tired gao gao.
Cant imagine wad's coming soon during the CNY season.

I juz bought 1 new shirt for CNY.
Aiks, guess I need to earn money for my car license first.
No shopping spree T.T

Recently I dont have enough sleep.
Always sleep late. >.<
Sometimes even late to work or reaching some place.
My sweet bed, when can I sleep 24hrs? :P

Drive n Study

2010-02-03T19:38:00.004+08:00

Haih,
im wondering,
when will I have the amount of money...
To get my driving license!!!
My targeted time = After CNY

"Choi San Yeh" arr,
faster give me huat~

Haih agn,
After CNY,
I need to think seriously abt my further study.
I need to decide wad I need to do in the future,
with no regret.

I wanna drive~~!!
I wanna study~~~!!!
>

Outing...

2010-01-30T15:01:00.004+08:00

AIks,
this 2010, this month,
Our gang,
Alex, Ken, Leanne Jie, and Mike...
Keep on hanging out together.
I like the days wit u all.
Frens forever :X

Happy Birthday Mike

2010-01-23T07:09:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was mike's bday.
The day before his birthday,
me, alex, ken n leanne jie went to his working place, Orange Cafe,
we gave him a birthday surprise,
guess he's quite happy for our presence while working, although tired @@
The sad thing is, I lost my PURSE.
Actually there's no money there,
but there's some important stuff inside.
Haih~
Doesnt matter anyway :((
Hope he like the Nike Shirt we gifted to him as his bday present XD

Happy birthday mike bro.
On tat day,
me, alex, ken, ah sou (ss), ss's bro, han and andrew,
went for his bday party at his place.
Ken n Alex stay overnight at my place for 2 days.
Opps, sorry for making u 2 cant sleep well :X
My sleeping kungfu too powerful already XD

Morning I go search for my purse nearby Orange Cafe,
no sense of it...
While Alex n Ken was sleeping,
I went to take the cake,
then went to Carefour and buy all the party stuff,
after tat balik rumah.
And no longer, the party is on :S
The party went well.
Glad tat...
It's one tiring day for us.

And now, me, ken n alex are currently at CC blogging in the morning.
Aihs, morning sunshine!~
Mike bro, hope everything goes well to u.
Happy always!

Ching Mom

2010-01-16T09:09:00.003+08:00

Urm, juz another spam post,
juz to wish Alex's mom Happy Birthday. (16/1)
Hope she healthy n happy always :))

Hmm, guess wad,
Mike's birthday is coming soon ><
I need ORGANIZER!
All my bros, when u read this post, please plan ASAP!~

What A MESS!!!

2010-01-16T09:05:00.003+08:00

Haih, this few days dunno do wad.
Blur blur de...
I made my working place become a mess when I was working.
Tsunami is all over the place~~

Ken had actually took few pic wit the mess.
And he really did post it on his blog.
Credits on him @@

Wanna know how messy is it?

Kindly visit :

http://ken721.blogspot.com/2010/01/i-just-realize-that-leisure-mall.html

http://ken721.blogspot.com/2010/01/omg.html

http://ken721.blogspot.com/2010/01/it-supposed-to-look-like-that.html

Old Dogs

2010-01-11T13:36:00.001+08:00

Wuahahaha,
today im going to watch old dogs wit my bros.
Hope tat movie could laugh us out loud.
Stress out~

Plans On CNY

2010-01-10T19:37:00.004+08:00

Bull shyt full time...
I duwan work at there already.
Bo feel already.
Aiks ><><
Its time to get my undang,P license, and my shopping spree!!!
Im starving :E

Most of my friends, including my close friend,
they are making comment abt my way of wearing.
quite out of date.
Im 18 (Rounded off),
I need to change my style already.
Bros, give me some time to save money.
One day we go shop gao gao~

"Learn to accept, learn to forgive."

Phone Blogging

2010-01-09T22:06:00.001+08:00

Wow...
Cant believe tat im using my phone and blogging now^~^
Shuang ar...
Drinking tea wit kai jie and her fren.

@t Orange Cafe ^^

2010-01-08T19:10:00.002+08:00

你要我怎样才算是一个不依赖你的儿子？

算了，我不想读大学了！

Work...

2010-01-08T16:47:00.004+08:00

Alright,

it's time to say goodbye to my part time jobs.

I found a job nearby my place.

Orange cafe, work as waiter, medium salary..

Damn, I need to find money jor,

Because I need money for my car license,

when I got money, i can shop as well ><

I need to find those money before I go for further study.

Argh...

It will start on 18th Jan...

Gotta work hard already!

Bored.

2010-01-05T23:16:00.003+08:00

School reopen le...

N now i no need to go to school le.

Haih, miss the time when im in school la.

Now my life really very boring...

Hang out, work, sleep,

dunno when will I become a pig XD

Man, i feel like flying now ><

Anyway, I have to take this time to enjoy my life...

So my conclusion is, ENJOY!

Working Thought...

2010-01-04T01:31:00.004+08:00

Today when i wake up,

i hope tat everything will be smooth as usual today.

wake up 9am in the morning,

had some cereal and prepare to work.

reach there on time,

work...

Today everything are simple n relax,

wont feel any tired.

But one thing i duno y,

i feel sux..

Im the anak angkat of the manager,

I can see tat many of the worker dislike him,

they even dislike me because im his anak angkat too.

I never show off to them,

When work, i work.

But when im not work, i might hang out or makan wit him,

sometimes i will chat wit him too.

There's nothing "bias" for me, i dint gain any privilege while working too.

I wonder y most of u give me another kind of look.

Im a ppl who dont like to polish ppl shoe,

while working, i will complete my job well.

I take care all my jobs fast n steady.

I wont care others ppl job.

because that's their job.

Unless they really need help.

I'll help...

I feel sux sometimes while working too,

They used to relate me wit the manager while working.

Anything happen they sure say im protected, this n that.

Wtf la, im juz a normal part timer at there.

I did my job completely when im given tasks to do.

Although sometimes i will curi tulang abit.

But im not like those "snaker" n those lazy ppl.

At the end i still complete my job.

U all also no need treat me another kind de wo.

When i was new there,

i'd bullied by others before.

I did tolerate.

tat time i work even more hard.

Now, juz because im anak angkat of the manager,

i did a little bit wrong,

i kena sing gao gao.

wads the matter now??

Eye red?

I dont wan this happen to me...

Sometimes,

I cant tolerate wit some workers.

When they cross the limit,

I might do something to make them go back their line.

I always tell my self not to do tat,

because I dont like to do tat.

I always act stupid all the time.

But dont think im an idiot.

Im not a good one to bully...

I juz wan to work with peace.

Hope coming days no ppl will mess up wit me while working.

Phew,

luckily my mood came back slowly..

School reopen le, hope my junior n frens will have a nice school life.

Work hard n good luck in study oo...

Btw I hate tat Boston in leiure mall,

Boston, sorry to say tat ur foods n services makes me feel disappointed...