A Solution Of Being Positive

Recently,
I found that I get frustrated easily.
I would ask myself,
am I suffering from mental sickness?
Is it because of Stress?

Listening to music now with my stereo speaker,
locking myself inside my room n dealing with my laptop.
Suddenly reflected what my dad lectured me just now,
I'm asking myself,
am I really have no target in my life? no aim? restless?
what I'm doing now, is not on the right track/way?
Outing more than staying at home, good or bad?
His word makes me feel like I'm like a dead soul without direction, floating..

Sometimes,
I just dont know how to describe this kind of feeling.
It's hard for me to convert my feeling into verbal form.
So it will only hide inside myself, digest it all my own..
Families matter,
every family do have..
I do facing it, I belief everyone does.
It's complicated..


Be positive, yes I know the way of being positive..
But there is not solution for what I'm facing now.
In conclusion, no relief..
However, one thing I felt most relief is,
I have what others don't have although they have what I don't have.
I just have to appreciate it,
that's why I'm making this post.

About my family matter,
No matter now worst my condition is,
I do belief that there is always existence of LOVE.
same goes to my beloved.

Rains will come n go,
as well as the sunny day.
Even the four seasons are taking turns also.
Believe in something which are strong and positive,
take that belief as a foundation or a base,
so that we will be strong enough to handle problems.
I do believe in LOVE..
Do you??

Leadership Camp

Last Sunday I have so call 'leadership' camp in school for 2 days 1 night.
This is the 1st camp in my form 6 life n also the last one in my secondary school I guess.
Me n my friends have been separated into other groups,
and my group, SUCKS!!

Went to the school in da early morning with half dead situation,
because I only slept for less than 2 hours.
On the second day, I never sleep!!

My leader = Totally useless..
My team-mate = Junior ( Don't know anything )
Walao-eh, really smash head..

However, I enjoyed the time with the form six gang..
The moment in toilet, played with waters with our underwear..
In camp, with all the minyak angin smells
The whole night we spend at the side of the stage,
the place we had fart n burk competition until 2 teachers ran away from us,
the place we play chor dai dee n makan together
the place we get frustrated with the mosquitoes,
and also the place we took videos of other sleeping XD
We Rawks the camp..

When the last day,
we had cooking competition,
tell u what, the tools prepared are not enough for my team..
my leader went home early, one of our member went home also.
No one knows how to start a fire naturally,
no one knows how to handle a fire,
I do almost everything my own..
Gosh..
But at last, we finished everything..

I would call that a form six camp than a 'leadership' camp..
My dear school, I think that having a form six camp would be much more better..

A Message To Friends

I've gone through few blogs...
It gave me the passion to make this post..

Recently, I can feel that friends around me are changing.
Of course la, people sure will change de ma...
Some remains, some gone,
some getting better, some got strained.
My conclusion is, it's normal...

Though, my relationship with Sharon is getting better..
Thanks god!
Not to share, not to show off,
Just to prove that love is long term n friends comes n goes...

What makes me feel disappointed is,
my friends who used to be close always, our relationship got strained.
Or maybe he/she was being busy all the time??
No idea..

Anyway, all the best to all of u...
May wish comes true and everything go smooth..

Something Hidden In My Heart

It's midnight now, I couldn't get my self to sleep.
Lying on the bed, feel like wanna blog now.

I felt that, everyone dislike me, sometimes..
Am I that bad??
I might think too much, but that's what comes in my mind.
Everything seems not balance to me..

Mid year exam is coming,
positively, i'm half realy!!
negatively, i feel like i could not score well!!
I dint really put lots of effort in this exam..
What am I doing? What am I thinking?!

Time is very limit,
satisfaction is unlimited..
Everything seems incomplete for me,
perhaps, it's not under my estimation..
There's a space in my heart,
what is it??

Alright, then I will spend whole night searching for it..

The One

After so many things happened.
I realize that,
you are still the one, one and only one.

Everything has reached the edge.
and now everything is back to normal.

I'm happy,
once again, I'm back,
No, should be "we" are back!!

Goodbye holiday,
goodbye "2 months"...

Holiday~

Ahhh, two weeks of holiday.

Wish all my friends n family Happy Hari Raya and Happy School Holiday.

ENJOY!!

One Malaysia??

I read a NOTE posted by Lau Chee Kin on Facebook.
He and his one of his friend had beaten up by a group of Malays.

Could you imagine during the Merdeka Eve,
you were beaten by a group of Malays,
and they WALKED off instead of running after beating up you.
They even mentioned, "Balik ke negara asal lah u!"
You went to make a police report,
and the policemen push all their responsible away.
How do you feel if you face this kind of situation??
This is what happened to Lau Chee Kin!

You called that ONE Malaysia?
I don't care what religion you are,
ONE Malaysia?? Ask YOURSELF!

I'm not showing how politic I am.
But this kind of issue, cant be tolerate.
Because I'd experience such case before.

2 years ago,
I got robbed by 5 Malays,
I managed to catch one of them.
I called the police, and brought to the police station.
I made a report regarding to this problem.
Guess what?
After I finish doing the report,
they just let go the Malay boy.
Try to think if the robber was not a Malay,
how will the policemen treat them?

IS this One Malaysia???
Earning the country respect with this concept??
Where are the values of One Malaysia concept??

One Malaysia,
"People First, Performance Now"
Good slogan instead, but POOR implementation.