New Year Eve

2011 is about to end, this year is really a suck'ish' year...

Seriously, I dislike what I'd done and what I'd faced this year...

I committed tons of wrong and mistake,

I'm such a failure, filled with lots of guilt.

Especially to the one who love me the most.

Last night, not a good night,

Brother's car got broke mirror,

everything stolen...

Couldn't blame anyone, we just can face what will happen in the future,

as well as learn from mistakes.

I hope, next year will be a good year.

FIGHT

Learn to say no and ignore,
it's for my own good :))
Thanks, I learn something today...
I'll keep it in my mind

The war starts today,
1st paper, PA, not easy, not hard, time problem :((
I tot the paper is on Tuesday.
Thank you again, for reminding me the exam is on Monday instead of Tuesday.
Managed to pick up some time to prepare for that paper, phew..

Questions to myself again, am I talking straight forward again?
Is that good or bad?
I was just trying to advice and that's my way of speaking..
It seemed not working and make the condition become worst.
Sometimes, I will think in such way,
"I gave u a big influence in ur life, but not making ur life better."
Btw, it's 1001...

Many things pops out in my head,
I hope everything is under control.
Cheers, fight till the end...

Very Soon

There goes, have to visit blogger for another time...
I'm considered in an exhausted level?
Today, I received all the bless from all my teachers n fellow students.
it's a day that I used to drop my tears during my graduation previously.
Fortunately went through it without tears, but full of memories behind.
After all, being in secondary school is not that bad...

Thanks to all of you who has been with me during my form 6 life in school.
Especially my class, and also those who raise up my 'lamer' mood all the time...
Though studying in form 6 = no life for my first define.
With u all, form 6 = rawks!!!
And, it was my 1st live Aluba in my life

Being stressful of the coming period.
everything I'd gone through, there's no turning back.
I have to overcome it without any regret.
Saying is easy, but to accomplish it is HARD!

I wonder, how do we define 'Thanks'?
I mean as in all cases.
Whatever I do, I will be thanked by others..
Not demanding much,
I just keep on listening that very frequently from others @@

Another question to myself,
am I being too straight forward?
I feel like I'm a sharp spear...

STPM, please bring me luck!

Around The Corner

Being one and a half year in Form 6,
and now STPM is around the corner.
I'm not confident, not well prepared.
In conclusion, I'm scared...

It has been 6 and a half year studied in secondary school.
Yea, school life with school uniform and SHORT hair,
comes to an end...
During this last week before STPM starts,
I realize that I actually miss the moment being in secondary school.
However, I have to move forward to face the exam.
After this, I have to face a new journey of my life.
Goodbye soon secondary high school :)))

I always have a question in my mind,
have you ever try to eat a bowl of rice with a cone of ice-cream at the same time?
How will it feel?

Limit

IT is coming very near,

30 more days to go...

Can I make it a success???

As I expected,

everything which have a start will come to the end.

There is a limit, sorry...

I just noticed during this 2 years,

I had past most of my time at outside.

I dint take good care of myself, didn't I?

Everyday asking myself,

is that good or shall I take a break?

Very confusing though..

Hmmmm,

Being dependent, not being dependent..

It that related to me, to your own self, or both?

I dont understand...

Problems & problems

For me, having one burden with me is a small matter..

When this burden double up,
it become heavier, more hateful, stress!

Everything keep rushing to me,
problems by problems..

I have to find solutions to solve it,
or else i'll be dead..
Have to hold on this pain,
no pain, no gain...

FML

Come on,
dont be so money matter...
I'm only 19 years old,
what do u wanna expect from me??

Every time I tried to open my mouth,
I used to think many ways n aiming for a good timing,
just to request something that u should provide,
ESPECIALLY in terms of money.
But end with argue...

Seriously, am I ur burden?
I did my best..